You are my friend? Seriously?

Why does it seem  I am remembering the mean things people have said to me?  My brother was such an ass to me growing up, but he was my brother...they are supposed to make your life miserable.  And trust me, he excelled at it.

The other day I was thinking about why I wanted to take this journey now and why I think I am going to be succesful this time.  I started to remember the hurtful things I have heard about my weight, and wondered why it is people think they can say anything to someone struggling with their weight and we  are supposed to smile..while really all we want to do is cry.  I dont want to hear those things anymore, so maybe that will propel me to success.

Want some examples?

1. Have you always been big? My answer should have been: Have you always been stupid?

2. You need to lose weight. Really? No shit, Sherlock.

3. My all time favorite (not really favorite but it does prove my point):  In grade 8 my best friend (shows you how much I knew) and I were outside at recess when a boy from our class walked by obviously upset about something...she called him to stop and I said "Hey, are you upset" and he said "Are you fat?" and my friend laughed and said "Wow, you must REALLY be upset!!"  Now, at 13 what are you supposed to do? This was my friend who up until that moment had never said an unkind word to me.  Funny what being around a boy can do to you! Still makes me cry to think about it.

I have never told that story to anyone.  But now I can get rid of that negativity and focus on being positive!!

So here we go...well into week two of the journey to a healthier me!!